AUGUST 4TH '09

okayy, i guess i know what i have to do now. i honestly think, i should just forget about you. i know this will be really hard, but its just something i gottah do. i love you so much, but i now you just dont have any feelings left for me. i wana be with you so much, but im just realizing that, im only hurting myself. my heart doesnt want that, my heart doesnt want anything right now. my heart doesnt wana hurt anymore. the ebst thing to do is just, forget about him. get over him. let go.

AUGUST 3RD '09

Jordan Julian Apostol

I dont know why, but i love you. I love you so much, all i want is to have you back. I hate the feeling of thinking your probibly on the phone with some girl, or that your already falling for another girl, or just the feeling that your over me. What hurts most is, i miss you so much, and your moving on. It makes me feel so happy when i get to talk to you, but then when we talk, it makes me feel like were still together. I just want you back, I dont want to lose you completly, but i think thats where its headed. I just got off the phone with you earlier, it was about 10:20pm, and you said you were gonnah talk to me after because you was going to go to sleep, the whole time i just been thinking, you probibly just got off the phone because you needed to call whoever it is your talking to now, because i remember, when we were together, you would always call me around 10. I domt know why i even bother, i know your not going to come back to me. All day in school tomorrow, i know im just going to be thinking about you, im going to think if you met anyone new, or if you got any new numbers, and all of that. i dont know, i cant stand thinking of you being with someone else. i wouldnt be able to handle, i just wish, i wish that we were together again. i need you in my life.